[: Faire monter la pression, last semester! ✿✿

[I'm soo stressed oout!]

This is a serious problem. I don't know what to do, I'm so scared if I'm going to fail out of college pero grabe naman.
I don't have a problem doing my work, I learn relatively easily and the subject matter interests me. But when I wake up in the morning, it is with dread that I realize I have homework/studying/class that day.
Strangely enough, I don't mind doing homework, sometimes it can even be fun. I really enjoy learning new things, maybe. And I feel so accomplished afterward, it feels really great, specially washing my own clothes, oh great!

I think what really scares me is the possibility that I will read the chapter, or go to class, and not understand. I'm afraid that I won't "get" the concept we're learning, or not understand the question on an assignment. I'm not even sure why this scares me so much. I'm also scared that I will do the assignment to the best of my abilities, but get a bad grade (that I DO understand).

Anyway, this fear paralyzes me so much that not only can I not do my assignment/go to class, I can't even THINK about school at all! Or I feel like my stomach is going to implode. Then I get behind...I have no excuse for not doing my work...I get even more stressed out. Every once in a while, the panic hits me and I go completely insane.

But the thing is, i'm just scared, i'm scared of being a graduating student, soon to be a great chef, soon, living my own life, finding my own job and salary. well, that's life.

“Go for the moon. If you don't get it, you'll still be heading for a star." :)

Above all, i miss my family soo muchii much >.<